It's here where I find my Freedom.

Presenting: "Sin" , my 3D model prototype.
I have not created the face or the rest of the body...yet. I still need clothes and hair and his sword, too.

IT'S FREAKING DIFFICULT. Imagine what you see here is made up of a "net". There are points on the net that you have to drag and position carefully so that the end result is nice and smooth. This alone took me two weeks to complete.



But I'm quite pleased with how it turned out. For one semester's worth of lectures, this isn't so bad after all ;) Hopefully one day I could make something that is as good as final fantasy. It's never to late to dream <3
And...my test results improved so much compared to the days I had in ITE...I've never had an A before when I was there, but now, I have some A's, at least. ;_; I'm so proud of myself, you have no idea. It's so hard to compete with international students...

It's not about boasting, or anything of that sort. Just that, right now, looking back at all the things I've done, I did the right choice, for once in my entire life...Thank you to my parents, to Allah, for giving me another chance.. Now I know that I'm not quite useless after all ~

Wahai ER-gang sekalian, ayuh, mari kita keluar berjalan sama-sama... Saya ingin menjumpaimu kerana terasa rindu di hatiku... T___T

(wahhhseeehhhh melayu rabak giler.)

HAH. TRY TO BEAT THAT... 8D

I changed the metal armature inside before resculpting the clay. Now I'm trying to convince myself that my character DOES NOT look gay.
My brother got a bit freaked out because of the clay's flesh-tone colour. I admit, initially, I'm a little freaked out too, but I'm cool now. It looks kinda like layers of skin from the back~XD

chanced upon THIS just now.
Oh, what the fuck guys, just leave michael alone. It's already bad enough that he died and now there's so-called "news" about him being allegedly insatiable for gay sex? That's just sad. The things people do just to get recognized...and the media laps it up with joy.

I need to find a place which sells cool graphic shirts in female sizes~
Does anyone know where to get them or can anyone recommend me a shop? I'm looking specifically for one in black, because I need to 'even out' the white tees that I have in my closet T___T

Uwaaaaa. Now that school's about to start, I fear for my life.
Animation's no joke...my previous elective class required me to draw 100 pages in sequence, but I think I did it BADLY. I felt even worse after going to the NAFA grad show. It's quite unbelievable, really. I HAVE NO IDEA HOW THE HELL I GOT IN. A part of me is extremely happy, because it is something I've always dreamt of , but the other part is filled with utmost dread. Will I be good? Will I actually achieve something? Is this the right decision? Will I make my mum proud?

Truth is, I don't feel prepared for this world. I have endless doubts about my self-worth. If this was a script, I'd rip off the pages containing 'me'. I fear living and yet I fear death. I guess no-one would understand. I'm such a freak.

Because epic lyrics need an epic WTH post, I'm posting them here :D

These are just an extract of the original songs~The bolded wordings are the ones which I find extremely LOL-worthy.

[fuck around and around]
confusion created by the herd of monkeys
I'm VI and you are VI
I want to dive in the cut of pomegranate
Masturbation with your body

suck sick suck suck suck fuck bod
the strawberry erects up
suck sick suck suck suck fuck bod
fucking in my luster

My strawberry in your shellfish
you are addicted to this pleasure
you think this to be 'love' [SEXUAL MISTAKE]
however, there does not have the 'love' [SEXUAL DIFFERENCE]


And btw, about 90% of these were originally in japanese (including the weird bits)~
Sheeeeeesh, I sure hope nega won't dissappoint me with their new album. Or rather, their lyrics =_= *strangles them*

Ok, due to loads of free time, I've thought up a few great substitutes if they wanted to re-use some of the same sentences:
"My cherry in your oyster"
"I'm BI and you are BI" 8D


HEY, ISN'T THIS AWESOME??? I CAN WRITE TOTALLY *ORIGINAL LYRICS, YAY!!!!

Went to streetfest with nao-chan on saturday XD
Ohohoho... I've never seen so many jrock cosplayers in one day~
The Diru gang, a mana cosplayer, 2 individual toshiya cosplayers, teru and hizaki from versailles and I think nao mentioned something about 2 ancafe cosplayers on her blog (although I didn't spot them)~ when i saw the teru cosplay I was like: "Eh, that costume looks soooo familiar...But I'm not the type who watches anime, so that can't be a cosplay based on an anime series."
*nudges nao** "why does that costume looks so darn familiar? Wha-HUH? Teru???" *facepalms*


Well. It was made with a lot of effort, that's for sure. He even dyed his hair for the role...But I think It should be a lttle more silver-ish? (Or maybe it got a bit washed out--ash blonde's hard to take care of). You should've seen some of the people there D:

Nerds + "punk clothes" + no make-up + glasses + unstyled hair + canvas shoes = recipe for disaster!! A couple of 'em dressed up like they're going for trick-or-treating on halloween. Killer make-up that would make K.I.S.S bow their heads in shame. If all they wanted was attention, they definitely got mine.



I forgot to bring my camera, and it turns out that I couldn't take pictures anyway, because I was manning "my booth" which sells jrock merchandise. Only sold one item T__T--i guess it's safe to say that loads of those people are posers because only approx. 15% of them gave a quick glance or bothered to browse through our items.


I have to say, the bands performing that day were REALLY GOOD. A heck of a lot of laruku songs and diru songs, coupled with a handful of luna sea's and an X japan song as a finisher to blow away the audiences at the end of the event. Oh, and there's 1 d'espairs ray song (TRICKSTER) performed by e'thereal. Holy fuck, I headbanged to that song like there's no tomorrow. Btw, the vocalist (I think kunio's his name?) had superrrr fair skin LAH, WTH.
Only 2? gazette songs for the entire event, which was kinda pathetic, IMHO, since I thought that they are supposed to be freakin' popular. One of them was performed by shino's band. (YAY SHINO!!)


AAAAaaand. There are a couple of performers who look like famous jrockers themselves.
One vocalist looks like kaoru (diru), another looks like ruki (gazette), and yet another vocalist looks like (surprise, surprise) GENKI from VanessA !!!! I just wished he'd style his hair and wear some hardokoaaa make-up.


Here's a picture that's stolen from nao's blog being compared with the real deal:









The picture's a little blurry, but their bassist (the one on the right) looks so much like hiroto from Alice nine. I had to do a double take, and when I've confirmed it, I went all fangirly XD

Next year's streetfest is something I'll look forward to, since the amount of talent shown in this year's event surpassed my expectations~with flying colours too~ To all of Nao's friends, I'M REALLY, REALLY GLAD TO HAVE MET YOU ALL~ Awesome buncha peeps! ^_^/b
Cya on cosfest~!

After waiting for months, I finally got my customized mirrors from the UNDER CODE webshop!!!!! Yippee~!! I know you guys don’t really care, but I’m feeling too happy right now so I’ll post the pictures here anyway.

The covers:



The signatures (inside and back):



It’s got my name in katakana, plus some smileys~You can choose any member you like, and they’re supposed to sign on the inner cover of the mirror, but for some reason, SAN’s signature is on the outside D: I'm *always* rambling on about SAN because he's one of my favourites. I made another fanart for him, but I dunno when I will be able to mail it out. The last time I did that, it arrived to him, but even with the cardboard backing, my artwork got crushed around the corners, liek WTF. Took me 3 damn hours to sketch that. Stupid postal services...



I used colour pencils this time round :D but I'm not sure about what to use as the backing to prevent shitty stuff from happening again~ (It's 3/4 complete, btw)



That Is SOME HORRIBLE BACKGROUND (!!!!!!!) hahaha. supposed to be fire, but meh. whatever la...

Afra a.k.a "livingdeadbunny"
17th July
Cancer

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